Pruned or Cut Off

I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off ever branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.
-John 15:1-2 (NIV)

Why is it always so surprising when God provides you insight into you current situation. Not even a resolution, just information that drowns you in peace and contentment. The past two years have been really trying for me. Constant battles barely won, but to God's credit victories nonetheless. I am exhausted. Recently, I have found myself more and more turning to God wondering if He is trying to push me away. When I read John 15:2 earlier this week I let out a little chuckle. Like one of those " I've lost my damn mind" chuckles. To read the words I read, get the insight God gave to me regarding them, and feel peace from it all? 

After reading that passage I realized whether God is trying to grow me or get rid of me, I will still feel the sting of the cut. A snip of a leaf versus the severing of a branch is pain nonetheless. So who and I to lament over the pain of life that we all feel?

While I am not certain whether God is severing this branch or pruning its leaves, I know I have enough faith to see the process to completion. I anticipate the bud of my first fruit but will not feel anxious if I come to meet the flames of a fire. In the end I know that His will reigns. As for now I will cling to the vine because apart from it I can do nothing.

-The Branch